Do you remember your dreams in life? Your plans in the future? Your goals and your wishes? Did you ever consider the possibility of forgetting them?
Of course you'd say "How could I?" or "Are you nuts?", even I would smirk at ya for it, but believe it or not I forgot mine.
It all started when my mum asked me "What's your plan?", and my answer was "I dunno." And for a long time now, I am still dumbfounded. Out of school and jobless, I am living a lazy life.
When my mum asked me again--and this time "What do you really wanna do in your life?"--I almost wanted to say "To sing with a band", but I kept my heart and I even joked about it.
Of course, who would make a living off of music except the most talented ones? It's a selfish dream and it won't benefit my family, but deep within me you have no idea how I wanted to reach that dream. But it's foolish, so I considered going back to school. Will I even finish it?
If I go get a job, where should I begin? Even my boyfriend undermines me if I could even get a job and maintain it.
I'm trapped and I wanna pull the trigger in my head and end it all.
I sound like a fucktard, but I'm just very depressed and confused that my lil bro said, "I didn't know you were this fragile."
And somehow he's the only one who understood me in this.
Of course you'd say "How could I?" or "Are you nuts?", even I would smirk at ya for it, but believe it or not I forgot mine.
It all started when my mum asked me "What's your plan?", and my answer was "I dunno." And for a long time now, I am still dumbfounded. Out of school and jobless, I am living a lazy life.
When my mum asked me again--and this time "What do you really wanna do in your life?"--I almost wanted to say "To sing with a band", but I kept my heart and I even joked about it.
Of course, who would make a living off of music except the most talented ones? It's a selfish dream and it won't benefit my family, but deep within me you have no idea how I wanted to reach that dream. But it's foolish, so I considered going back to school. Will I even finish it?
If I go get a job, where should I begin? Even my boyfriend undermines me if I could even get a job and maintain it.
I'm trapped and I wanna pull the trigger in my head and end it all.
I sound like a fucktard, but I'm just very depressed and confused that my lil bro said, "I didn't know you were this fragile."
And somehow he's the only one who understood me in this.
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