Never Back Down. It's a fight movie with a very awful soundtrack. It's a fairly predictable movie and maybe Star Movies is just idling time with this. Same old pride-builder egoistic testosterone-filled sweaty flick, but you know what got me into it? The world on your shoulders for being the eldest child of the family.
Oh man, whoever wrote this movie, he/she knew what it was like to be the goddamn eldest kid. I myself am the eldest and you can't believe the expectations they set for you that you end up clueless of your choices when your future comes. You don't even have the confidence to continue in your life anymore because you need a fucking approval. And if you're thinking this is bullshit? It's not my fucking fault anymore if you weren't born the goddamn first one in the family.
You have to set an example as a role model to your siblings. You have to make the right choices. You have to look out for your brothers. I didn't ask for this, but then again I didn't ask to be the second-born either. So I tried to set an example and looked out for my brothers as well. I thought hard of the right choices to make and all the while living my life as best as I could. I tried to stand up on my own and for the first time in my life I was selfish. So I started having a piece of my mind and making choices of my own to which I was barred from but I stood firm and defended what I believe is right.
And then when the time came that I actually made the wrong decision, I fell hard and, to my dismay, nobody picked me up. Not even parents and brothers and grandparents and friends can make me stand on my feet again because they never even bothered. They say the worst things at the wrong time--or better yet, they're never there at all. Funny, isn't it? No.
And then they punish me leaving my brothers out of my watch. Then, Deo died and I blame myself more entirely than ever for not guiding him and not looking out for him while I selfishly succumb to the pain of my own past mistakes. My life has changed and all of a sudden my kid brother gets a life because I can't get any!
Up to this day, I don't know what to do because I might make another mistake again for being myself too much. So I wait for some fucking approval of some sort that IT'S ACTUALLY GODDAMN OKAY TO BE HUMAN!
Fuck. If I only knew what to do, I wouldn't be in this black hole. And if I go back to being selfish again, I will really leave this place. Yeah, I'll leave everything behind and I wouldn't have any care and any worry at all anymore. That is so inviting and maybe in that time I wold actually know what to do.
But you know what? I didn't leave, did I? I still stayed and I'm waiting patiently for my time to depart from all of this. Is it to die? Is it to run away? Is it to fly? Is it to swim away from here? I don't know myself, but there's one thing I'm sure of: I'm fucking tired being the eldest. Why don't you guys try it? Let's see if you'll love the fucking attention because I know I don't. It's suffocating me to every cell of my being.
Oh man, whoever wrote this movie, he/she knew what it was like to be the goddamn eldest kid. I myself am the eldest and you can't believe the expectations they set for you that you end up clueless of your choices when your future comes. You don't even have the confidence to continue in your life anymore because you need a fucking approval. And if you're thinking this is bullshit? It's not my fucking fault anymore if you weren't born the goddamn first one in the family.
You have to set an example as a role model to your siblings. You have to make the right choices. You have to look out for your brothers. I didn't ask for this, but then again I didn't ask to be the second-born either. So I tried to set an example and looked out for my brothers as well. I thought hard of the right choices to make and all the while living my life as best as I could. I tried to stand up on my own and for the first time in my life I was selfish. So I started having a piece of my mind and making choices of my own to which I was barred from but I stood firm and defended what I believe is right.
And then when the time came that I actually made the wrong decision, I fell hard and, to my dismay, nobody picked me up. Not even parents and brothers and grandparents and friends can make me stand on my feet again because they never even bothered. They say the worst things at the wrong time--or better yet, they're never there at all. Funny, isn't it? No.
And then they punish me leaving my brothers out of my watch. Then, Deo died and I blame myself more entirely than ever for not guiding him and not looking out for him while I selfishly succumb to the pain of my own past mistakes. My life has changed and all of a sudden my kid brother gets a life because I can't get any!
Up to this day, I don't know what to do because I might make another mistake again for being myself too much. So I wait for some fucking approval of some sort that IT'S ACTUALLY GODDAMN OKAY TO BE HUMAN!
Fuck. If I only knew what to do, I wouldn't be in this black hole. And if I go back to being selfish again, I will really leave this place. Yeah, I'll leave everything behind and I wouldn't have any care and any worry at all anymore. That is so inviting and maybe in that time I wold actually know what to do.
But you know what? I didn't leave, did I? I still stayed and I'm waiting patiently for my time to depart from all of this. Is it to die? Is it to run away? Is it to fly? Is it to swim away from here? I don't know myself, but there's one thing I'm sure of: I'm fucking tired being the eldest. Why don't you guys try it? Let's see if you'll love the fucking attention because I know I don't. It's suffocating me to every cell of my being.
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