Sleeping to Cobain's Voice

I woke up to the sound of Kurt Cobain's voice in my headphones. Lately, I've been trying to get more sleep than usual, and by doing that straight away, I need to listen to my kind of music with nobody else bothering so I can succumb back to my own private world. And it's been amazing for a couple of days now that I've been back to this kind of privilege just so I can get back on my own two feet again.

I wasn't listening to some Nirvana songs. In fact, I don't have their discography downloaded yet. I just get lazy sometimes, so I never bothered to anyway. I was actually re-watching an interview documentary called "About A Son" directed by AJ Schnack. I love hearing Kurt's voice in that entire documentary and felt the idea of listening to him while going to sleep would work.

The first things I heard again was about his early childhood and how him and I are a little similar having psycho dads growing up. I guess in that time I've already fallen asleep for my usual siesta.

And back to where I was saying, I woke up to the sound of Kurt Cobain's voice. I heard him talking about Courtney and how it was really different with how people like to judge her all the time--that she eventually led Kurt to his untimely death and all the while in those few minutes re-watching this documentary, he was talking positively about her. And it occur to me that Courtney didn't make Kurt die. It was the media that destroyed what Kurt loved.

And on and on he went up until his prediction of music in 20 years and how it will be very re-hashed and plagiarized that music will become nothing more than a fashion statement to have an excuse to have a social life. I laughed. Living now after his death, he was very correct.

And as the documentary ended, I cried. A year after that interview was done, he shot himself in the head.

I've always examined myself whether the people I look up to are bad or wrong or entirely different from other people's point of view, and whenever I do, I always agree within me that these rockstars I look up to are not the typical people you meet anyway so why should I bother with other people's judgments about them. They make me sane in anyway possible and that's good enough for me.

And then another thing came up. John Frusciante and Kurt Cobain are alike in some ways. And my grandfather also thinks somewhat like them both. And then I found out that they are actually "Pisces" people. LOL. Geniuses from water, I guess.

That's all for now. I just felt like sharing stuff after waking up.

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A/N: Angelikus was just discharged from the hospital a couple of days ago due to allergy and asthma attacks caused by stress and over fatigue. She is in need of bed rest for a week.