Goodbye, Evanescence

For the longest time, I have been a big fan of Evanescence. Although I don't follow the band's life in general, their music was much more important to me than controversies--especially with Amy Lee's case having been in a relationship with Seether's vocalist for the longest time but parted ways bitterly. The album the band released after her breakup with Shaun was "The Open Door". I instantly bought it with my own money when it was out.

I first heard the band while I was a DJ in M.O.R. Cotabato. Like everyone else, I listened to "Bring Me To Life" and I got completely hook. And just like everyone else, their music was confused by the mainstream as a mixture of goth and something else. I was one of those that got fooled by this mix up but I am glad that it had been cleared out sooner.

Their music was dark, there is no denying to that. What's more amazing is the band's vocals. Amy Lee has a great voice and to front a band with a voice like that singing with music like that was just like one of the many dreams I wanna achieve in life. I simply wanna be in her state as well, so becoming a powerful vocalist had been my passion for a decade. So far, I have achieved this aspect in my life in some sort of a way, but still I need more practice. Having known Amy Lee's adolescence as a member of their school choir, that even made it harder for me since I have never been part of the choir in my high school. In fact, I refrained from it because of my introvert personality then.

I did what I can to improve myself and just by listening to Evanescence made me go further as a vocalist. Even today, my talent was because of my perseverance and drive to be just like Amy Lee in Evanescence in a much darker sense.

"The Open Door" was the second album I bought from them (the first one was "Fallen"). So having heard the news of their new album release got me all excited. I even listened to the lyrics video that they posted in Vevo. And while it wasn't that dark as I expected it to be, I still hear her powerful voice. That alone was enough for me to decide to buy their new album when it finally comes out in our local music stores.

Today, I saw the update from their Facebook page about their new video up in Vevo. For the longest time, I have endured what this music video site has done to viewers like me. With their whoring of licences for copyrights on YouTube, they are able to diminish other channels from uploading originals because of "supposed" copyright infringement. Obviously, this is a capitalist movement and today they have finally done it when they successfully made it impossible for the rest of the world to watch Evanescence's new video of their new single from their new album. Simply put, I can't watch the video.

And this is why I have decided to end my fandom with the band (just like when I stopped listening to Silverchair when "Young Modern" came out). By allowing the capitalists to own their rights and making it exclusive only in the U.S., I am disappointed. I have no reason to support this band anymore. I have always looked up to them and hoped that everything goes well for the band after all that shit they have gone through, but this is just too much to take. Shutting the door in my face just because I am not from America? Amazing way to impress fans worldwide.

So now, I bid my farewell to Evanescence. It had been an experience quite memorable, even a passion unforgettable, but I think looking up to them was a regrettable mistake. True that it improved my talents, but maybe I should've looked somewhere else instead to continue more of this sparked drive.

Which reminds me... Tarja Turunen anyone? Tee hee~